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sorry guys that i didnt updated moi blog for sometime... been stress for the past few weeks... things has not been goin well for mi.. money problem, family problem and moi dad illness.. i think it is the end for moi happy-go-luckly days... time to be much more serious and get all the things done and solve... moi b'day are getting near but moi feeling is still damn down and freak. i was alone in overseas and i had learn alot for this past years, but wat i always did is LEtting ppl down,,,... maybe is god that wan mi to be strong, that's y thing keep happening around mi... i cant be anymore stronger and i cant take anymore blow... i am now weak and lost hope in everything... i dunnoe how to get the smile back in moi face, i cant think of anymore Joke that can bring joy to ppl next to mi... i am just like a DEAD person that walk around wif no target and distination.. i had try to hide all moi sadness but it has "overflow" in moi life.. wat moi life has turn into is wat i also dunnoe... just felt i am a real BIG loser... to many ppl i may look strong and i can take things easy.. but when i am weak and tired, who will noe and who will be there? and just a few days ago. i recived a bad news from moi mum that moi dad is admited in to the hospital and still in Coma, yet i am not there to help out moi mum. again it is an disappointment!! i really let alot of ppl down family, dear and friends... life now to mi is just too meaningless for mi... althou it might be alot more for mi to suffer.. maybe this is moi Karma.. and it is a RETURNING wif no REST... i think i do need some rest.. too tired to carry on... "Life is just a chart of bar(s) and line(s), where it's always UP and DOWN. a paths that we cant choose and changes." |
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